Rain:381: Incorrectness

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Synopsis

Rain laments the fact that she is trans, and dwells on her belief that Rudy only likes her because she is pre-op.

Author Notes

If you are virtually ANY category of non-hetero and/or non-cis, and not had Rain’s inner monologue (or something very similar) at some point in your life, consider yourself fortunate. I’m serious. Today, I’m very proud and open about who I am, but I think Rain’s monologue is actually quite toned down from the self-loathing I used to put myself through when I was about her age. It’s weird to think back on now… 

On a lighter note, this page was almost called “Rainbow Sprinkles”. I worried it might be inappropriate for the mostly serious nature of this particular page though.

Transcript

Rain is thinking to herself:

She's just so normal. So carefree.
Perhaps a bit of an airhead...
...but she's so effortlessly happy. She can be herself whenever she wants, and it's never an issue.
It doesn't have to be an issue. I'm sure neither one of them has ever questioned anything in their relationship.
Her boyfriend is undoubtedly straight and likes her because she's obviously a girl. Maybe they've even done it.
I mean, why not? They're both obviously attracted to each other. They're a normal girl and boy in a normal relationship...
What am I? Some kind of freak girl with the wrong anatomy, and dating a boy who is probably only attracted to me on account of said anatomical incorrectness.
No! I can't be thinking things like this! Like Holly said, Rudy and I are cute together. We're happy and in love with each other.
Everything okay, Rain?
Sorry. Didn't mean to startle you. I said your name a couple times.
Vanilla with rainbow sprinkles, right?

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