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MIS:151: The Reborn Lilim

Synopsis

Nagisa recalls a time three years ago when she tried to discuss the topic of medical transition with a friend, but it didn't go well. She steels herself to tell Chiaki that she's transgender, but Chiaki is only confused.

Author Notes

Let's go backwards a little on this one. The page closes with a "not-that-big" big reveal in which Nagisa tells Chiaki she's transgender. Many of you had guessed this when the thieves were in Nagisa's room last chapter, and Harley explained that the vials in there were very likely to be transition meds. Many other readers wondered if they might have another purpose as transformation seems to be a very versatile magic. As we will go into that more a bit later, I wanted to keep things a bit more simple for now.

Anyway, she says this to Chiaki, who has no idea what the word even means. For all our heroine knows, it's something that only exists in this world. O_o

Speaking of things that only exist in this world, the first half of the page gives us a flashback with 13 year old Nagisa (yes, same name; it's gender neutral and she kept it). She recalls a day where she shares details about Lilim to someone she knew in the village she grew up. I think this is the first time I've explained what Lilim are in canon, but it's not the first time you've heard the word. Right from the beginning, this world is described as being in the Age of Lilim. And, if you read the blurbs, you might remember mention of the Prophet Lilith.

With the information Nagisa shares in this flashback, Lilim have occasionally come along since the time of Lilith, thought to be her reincarnation, and saved the world from some horrible atrocity again and again. And if we tie it to the Age of Lilim, these chosen ones have been coming along many times over the last 3,000 years or so. This is an important bit of worldbuilding we'll come back to a lot.

But let me quickly shoot down the obvious first guess: Chiaki is not a Lilim. As Nagisa says, Lilith and all the other Lilim are born with a violet mark on their right cheek. No one we've seen in the present day has such a mark.

Finally, let's talk about Phoebe, the first of many past Lilim we'll learn about throughout the story. Assigned both male and hero, she did her duty, and defeated the evil that plagued her time. But even then, something else was always bothering her. She would go on to spend the next two decades experimenting with magic to figure out if physical transformation was possible, as well as how to do so effectively and safely. Phoebe's research was a great success, allowing her to finally be herself. She then dedicated the rest of her life to traveling and spreading her findings everywhere she could to help others like her. Quite the hero, indeed.

Transcript

Flashback to three years ago:

Nagisa is seen at the foot of a tree, reading, while Ary is training swordwork.

Hey, Ary. Do you know about Phoebe, the Reborn Lilim?
Sorry, about what?
Oh, the Lilim are these heroes chosen by the Prophet Lilith, said to live in dire times, and are destined to save the world from calamity. They're always born with a violet mark on their right cheek like Lilith herself, so people think they might be her literal reincarnations! And—
Nagisa, hold up! I know what the Lilim are. I meant, like, "what about him?" Why are you asking all of a sudden?
Anyway, it's her, actually.
Apparently, after defeating the Demon Lord of her time, she ended up becoming the inventor of modern transformation magic.
They say Phoebe did this because she was so unhappy with pretending to be a man. And she spent the next two decades of her life working out the logistics of crafting a perfect transformation spell, so she could be seen as the woman she knew herself to be.
And then she just gave that research to everyone else, teaching others how to do it too.
Don't you think that's amaz-
Yeah, kinda stupid, right?
I mean, this guy does this incredible thing and saves the world. What does he have to be unhappy about?
And then he just throws away all that time to create a spell that just makes people look different. Which, I might add, for being so perfect, people still get hurt or even killed for using it wrong.
I think most of the Lilim are incredible heroes, but I don't think I'll ever understand him.
Why do you ask, though?

Present day:

Nagisa-chan?
You were kinda pulling a me there for a minute, blanking out like that. What's on your mind?
I... I'm afraid to say. I don't want you to think less of me.

Chiaki appears confused.

Nagisa gently pulls her hand away.

I'm transgender!

Chiaki appears confused again.

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