Rain:1098: Anxiety

Synopsis

Chanel expresses her anger that Maria didn't contact her, and Maria apologizes.

Author Notes

I know. Y'all just wanted to see some cute MarNel stuff, and instead we get this (I swear, I never get the cute pages on my birthday). But you can't just disappear from your partner's life without a word for months and expect everything to go right back to the way it was without some kind of discussion. Especially when you're a teenager, a couple months can feel like an extra long time.

Does this mean they'll break up? Not necessarily. This is a bump in the road for them, but talking about things, I think, is important. It's better than letting it linger and stew. And this has already had months to do just that. It's not the fun, cute page we all wanted, but it might even be for the better in the long run.

Transcript

So, I'm really happy to see you alive and well and... you know... here. But I'd be lying if I said I wasn't mad.
I get you were busy, and you didn't want to risk being found by your parents... but I still worried every day.
A simple call or text from time to time - even just to say, “hey, I’m still okay” - would’ve helped a lot.
I know... And I agree. I'm sorry.
If I'm being honest, at first it was just me being so laser focused on my work. I wanted your dress to be perfect.
But eventually, I realized what I was doing to you. And the more time that passed, the more I worried. I knew you'd be upset, and I just psyched myself out.
I became so anxious that I'd finally call and you'd dump me for being gone so long. I didn't know what to say - if there was anything I could say - that would make it up to you.
This anxiety might've also contributed to my lateness tonight...
I realize none of this excuses me, but I hope it at least... explains.
And, um... sorry. Again.

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